Today I just woke up with a desire to write down my thoughts.
I spent the night dreaming about travels (not mine, just confusing travels, you know whe you sleep what happened). When I woke up I just scrolled out my youtube inscriptions and I pressed play to a “PsycoTraveller”‘s new video where she talked about hostels and how she feels too old for them.
Well, I think the same. I’m “only” 26 years old but a lot is changed in the last year.
In 2016 I spent my year travelling alone around the world and I was sleeping most of time in hostels (sometimes in bus, so maybe better in hostel).
I met a lot of people, living with them (1 month, 2/3 weeks…).
In this time I was feeling good, really free and indipendent.
I was conscious I had only a bed and a little space to put my stuffs, but it seemed enough.
When I flew from Brisbane to New Delhi, I was sharing my room with an Australian woman, older than me. I had a amazing month in India, in the ashram when I learn Yoga. But, already then, my body was telling to myself: “darling, you need your private space“. It was like I was feeling my soul growing up.
Why I feel to old to stay in Hostel?
I just think now I have too much in my mind and I need my privacy.
My year is totally changed, when I travelled my mind was resetted and when I come back home I was a different person from before.
I spent another year pretending to have a “normal” life, but I know it doesn’t fix to me.
My desideres are changed: I dream about a family with the man I love, but I still dream about a life of satisfactions just doing what I really love.
I know I can accomplish, just remind yourself: “you can do it”.
I’m working for it.
I promised to myself I would never be considered “normal”.